Officially missing.

Crash and burn.
Speechless.
Think about it. 
Again and again.
Curious.
Sad. Mad.
Hurt.
And MISS.


"All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Ooh baby, tell me why'd you have to go?
Cause this pain, I feel it won't go away
And today, I'm officially missing you

And I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today, I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do me like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby, said stays on my mind
And I'm, officially missing you

All I do is lay around
Two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago, you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So, that I could get through to you somehow
But, I guess it's safe to say, baby
Safe to say, that I'm officially missing you

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there's some things I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way, to let go of you

It's official
You know that I miss you
Yeah, yeah
All I hear is raindrops
Ooh yeah"

And I'm officially missing you....


- A

F for FINISH.

I am so done with you.

Thanks for the past 2 years,kiddo. 
I'll treasure it, deep inside my heart. 
Our memories, our journey, our happiest time together.
Whatever happen to us, you will always be my best,dear.

This is it.

"Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering 
How it could be now or might have been 
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true 'til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on you'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say 
You're the one I think about each day 
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be 'cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes You will
Say you will
You know you will
Oh Baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget

There's no use looking back or wondering 
Because love is a strange and funny thing 
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye

And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you" 
- Never had a dream come true by S Club 7


♥, A

E for Elvis

Dear my dearest Kiddo,
i want you to know,
what i feel right now,
what i really want,
what i wish,
but i can't, cause you are miles apart.

just like Elvis Presley's song called "I Miss You".

Still I recall all the good times together
The love we shared, the fun and the laughter
How I wish you could feel what my heart says tonight dear
I miss you and I wish you were here

Dreams that I had they lay broken in sorrow
The plans I made the hopes for tomorrow
If I could I would tell you I’m lonesome dear
Oh I miss you and I wish you were here

All through the night I will see memories passing
The way you looked the sound of your laughing
How I long for the touch of your hand holding mine dear
Oh I miss you and I wish you were here

You will say that i am too much,
i am too mellow,
i am too sensitive,
but the fact is,
i can't deny myself that

I MISS YOU SO MUCH, Muu.



♥, A

D for Dream

now i wanna talk about dream.
well, i'm a dreamer and a daydreamer also. :p
i have a lot of dream. and sometimes, i'm questioning 'why'.
not only that , i'm daydreaming quite a lot, fantasize about my future plans, reminiscences about past experiences, or my pleasant thoughts, hopes or ambitions. all that i called - my 'wishes fulfillment'. i enjoy being a daydreamer, or a dreamer.
i believe that dreaming updates patterns in our minds. so when people dream of being successful they are more likely to become successful.
just like 'Cinderella' soundtrack - "a dream is a wish your heart makes" :

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep 
In dreams you lose your heartaches 
Whatever you wish for, you keep  
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving 
If you keep on believing 
the dream that you wish will come true

So, enjoy your dreams, dreamers! :)

♥, A 

C for Choco-love

Chocolate. hmm. my favorito! yummy.
but now i wanna tell you that chocolate and love is almost the same.
one word: addicted.
hahahaha. just like what India Arie and Musiq Soulchild said:

There is somethin' about your love
That makes me just want to open up
Your flavor is the sweetest thing in life
I'm addicted to your chocolate high
Cause I want you,
and I know that you want me
So let's stay close like we supposed to be
And just get high off our own supply
I'm addicted to your chocolate high

I be trippin' in so many ways if I
Go a single day without a taste of your love
The finest cuisine of today's world
Five stars, oh you're so gourmet girl

I crave you, I want you
Every cell in my body needs you
Tasty like hershey's and nestle
You're rich like godiva boy you just so sexy

so what do you think? agree with that? ;)


♥, A

ме аиd му 2пd аииіν! ♥

29 april 2007. 2 years ago.
i coupled with someone. someone that i miss so so so so much right now.
his name is Ashton. definitely not kutcher, but i wish. ;)
he's a caring, understanding and one of the chillax guy i've ever know.

quite hard for him to show his feeling to me, although he loves me.
but he always show in a different way to express it.
whatever it is, it always means a lot for me.
i really appreciated it,dear.

29 april 2009. today.
thank you for the fantastic 2 years of having a roller coaster relationship with me.
and still counting for many years ahead!
oh yeah, you're the champion,sayang! :)

i needed the shelter of someone's arms, and there you were
i needed someone to understand my ups and downs, and there you were
with sweet love and devotion
deeply touching my emotion
you brightened up for me all of my days
with a love so sweet in so many ways
i just want to thank you baby

How sweet it is to be loved by you, Kiddo!




♥, A
ps: i wish you were here,muu. me miss you.

B for Besties.

The first thing that pop out of my mind when i think about "B" is BESTIES!

Besties - short for "Best Friends". I wrote about BESTIES on my notes in fb, not just once but twice. haha. not just for fun, but i really deeply mean it. Here one of my notes about besties:

"I believe that TRUE best friends stays forever. They - the one that know me well and can be trusted - are the one that i respect. i know who they are. Thanks for making my life is worth having-whatever happens, best!"

Besties not just only know everything about you, but the REAL best is the one that you can count on, plus the one that you can TRUST! I've been being back stabbed by my best friend - or maybe can call her ex-bestfriend! I told her almost everything, until one day i found that her enviousness takes control of herself, and ruined our friendship. Just like one of a quote about best friend - "I takes years to build up trust, and just a second to destroy it." that's true tho!

From now on, i need to be more carefully to share or to trust them - the one that i called BESTIES or some of them i rather called friends. and thank God, i still have my very besties -

that will always there for me,
through good times and bad
through happy and sad,
beside me you stand,
beside me you walk,
you're there to listen,
you're there to talk,
with happiness, with smiles,
with pain and tears,
I know you'll be there,
throughout the years!

I HEART MY BESTIES. :]


♥, A.

A for the beginning

hey hey welcome to my so-called life!

okay,let's just start with a letter "A".
"A" is the beginning, the first letter from the alphabet.
o yea, my real name also start with a letter A tho! :]
for me "A" can be interpreted as an introduction.
firstly, i call myself as "little miss petite" - in fact i am a small little tiny girl!
so whatever i am, how i look like, what people called me or what people think about me.
it doesn't matter, because i am what i am.
and bear in mind that "don't judge a book by its cover". i am totally agree with this because we can't determine people or something based on its appearance. whether small or big; tiny or tall; black or white; don't ever underestimate based on their look, because not all that you see or you think is right. better you get to know them first before you judge them.
anyway, i love myself for what i am.
well that's all for today.

♥, A.